enter.my.mind

soon.soon.

2009-02-16T00:32:00.000-08:00

Things to do really really SOON that I've been planning to do but can't find e time yet:

1. reply piggy's message
2. reply kristin's message
3. check my facebook
4. clean n tidy my room
5. wash clothes

everythings a mess rite now thanx to midterms n GAYA plus SMUKI stuffs to do. anyway really glad that GAYA's progressin well,,heheheee

o no. another song that i cant stop playin in my mind: Unintended by MUSE. enjoy!

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one Ill always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one Ill always love

Ill be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one Ill always love

Ill be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Ill be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

haha.spaaaaamm

2009-01-29T18:05:00.000-08:00

..it all started when e hostel management sent this email:

..o well print screen's not workin so i'll just type it then..

Hostel management:

Subject: [Hostel] Silent Hours Reminder
Hello Everyone, There have been some complaints regarding the noise level in
the hostel after silent hours. Please do remember that silent hours in the
hostel are from 12am to 8am. Kindly be considerate and adhere to the silent
hours so as to prevent any inconvenience to the hostel residents. Thank you.
Regards,
Hostel Management Team

Me:

To: SHI Fei Ran; LOW Wan Ting; LIM Fern Yit; ARVIND Rajendran; OKKAR Kyaw; Kristin LOO Shi Qi; Jason LIEW

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa is it us????

Leann:

never me. must be you!!

Me:

Haaaaah?? No. Must be fei ran..

Fern Yit:

Concluded, jess, fei ran and wan ting. CC to kok siong.

Me:

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nah must be e guys..all e girls in hostel are so quiet and shy

Fern Yit:

Shy my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me:

Your ass is shy??

Fern Yit:

Yea. That’s why it’s covered.

Me:

Then i think you should cover your head instead papa coz its bigger than your ass x)

Fern Yit:

You should cover your cheeks too. coz when I squeeze them together it looks like an ass on your face =P

Leann:

stop fighting, bastards. bababababbaba.gong xi gong xi.

Arvind:

SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM!!!! :)

Fern Yit:

DOTA DOTA DOTA!!!!

Me:

Hahhahahhahahaa poor fei ran i think she’ll faint when she check her inbox,, Woohoo spamming spree!!! X)

Arvind:

DOTA DOTA DOTA???YES YES YES!!! Now...STOP STOP STOP!!! :)

ckckck..look what dota can do to you? worse than drugs man

Me:

Stop stop stop what what what??? *annoying mode: on*

Okkar:

You are already annoying enough without turning on your annoying mode!!! Someone sit on Jess!!!

Fei Ran:

u guys........... SPAM !!!! *with super big red font x)

..n thats e end of our spamming spree. hail spamming!

o no my longest post so far

2009-01-20T02:30:00.000-08:00

reply for mommy Kristin's message:

MOMMY!!!!! *run* *HUGS* *wont let go* *fall asleep*

Sorry can’t reply your message in e facebook coz im back in SMUKI busy mode again somehow n dun hav time to take care of my facebook T____________T *bye bye new year resolution* OMG!!! HOW ARE YOU?? Meet nice people yet?? Have you tidy up your room or luggage?? Hows e house?? Hows Sweden?? Is it really cold?? Must update me k!! Hehhehehehe

Dun worry mamiii its normal to feel lonely coz you’re still new,, besides its your first time staying abroad so leaving home might be difficult for you..e first time i went to Singapore i cried in indonesia’s airport all-the-waaaaaaaaaay to changi,,hahhahaa *dun tell anyone tho* really,,sooner or later you will find someone like yourself there,,play with e locals eh mami!! I want an ang mo papa remember??hehehehe o yeah shops close early..same as Australia,,5pm n nowhere to shop n i woke up at 1pm after sleeping very late e night before,,by e time i finished showering n stuffs,,i only hav at most 2 hours to shop!! Grrrrr,, haha mami sooner or later you’ll learn to cook so when you’re back you can cook for us,,x)

YES COCKROACH!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW i almost died. Seriously. It was really scary,, i played dota till 3 hen supper till 4 but i couldn’t sleep yet coz ive morning class (ma) n i haven’t done e homework,,e worst part is i just knew that i MUST submit e homework to e ta..o well..so at around 5 am im still doin ma when suddenly i saw a cockroach crawling in my room from outside!!! OMG..just remembering it makes me dizzy..somehow i didn’t shout but i ran to uncle’s room n asked her whether i can sleep at her room,,but to think of it again,,i couldn’t just sleep becoz:

1. My ma hooow??
2. E cockroach may give birth inside my room if i dun kill it straightaway!!

N so with all my might i went back to our unit n pushed a chair to prevent my room’s door from closing,,then i stood on e chair,,carryin a broom,,yelling at e cockroach to come out n try to make sound n poke here and there with e broom so e cockroach would come out. No use. I was so desperate dunno what to do T_______T

FINALLY.

Okkar came with a baygon can,, *fastforwardin e story* and..he killed e cockroach and my life was once more fine again,,

Anyway bout school,,i still haven’t done a single reading yet..which is very bad coz i wanted to. Instead: i played DOTA EVERY SINGLE NITE..sick. we usually end at 3/4/even 5..i didn’t get enough sleep,, there’s one day when i only slept for 1 hour coz of DOTA ,, e morning after that ive morning n noon classes,,then GAYA training till 5,,5-6 i watched Voix performance,,then i went back to shower for awhile,,then went to Victoria theatre to watch IndanCity production,, rushed back to cathay (it was crazy!! E performance finished at 10.30pm n e movie in cathay started at 10.30pm!!) n watch ip man,,which was REALLY REALLY GOOD. Omg. I didn’t expect a movie with such a weird title to be that good.

sorry uncle leann for not trusting you,,xp

hehe theeeeeeeen,,i played DOTA again till 5 n slept for 10 hours but e next day i only slept for about 3 or 4 hours,,n that was e kind of life im havin now,, But im gonna stop. Hehe. I wont play DOTA anymore. you know mami,, 1 of my friends offered to buy me lunch if i can stop for a week,,another friend will buy me 5days meal at koufu if i can stop for 1 month. YAAAAAY!! Ive incentives to stop playin DOTA!!

Hahahahahaha now you know how i feel everytime i got lost,,o yeah i got lost when i was tryin to find Victoria theatre,, i tried to find 3 bus stops which were all wrong,,then i walked to city hall n gave up on bus but e people there dunno wheres Victoria theatre!! So i asked for esplanade but on e way i asked another person for Victoria theatre then that person pointed to opposite direction,,then i ended up in some scary alley with a drunken looking ang mo so i ran even tho maybe he was just happened to be drunk there n wont do anything,,anyway i was freaked out n ran,,with high heels..anyway its a very long story n i ended up spending 50 mins to go to e theatre n late about 30 mins or so..o well. So whenever you got lost,,remember me n remember how lucky you are to be at least born with a sense of direction..hehehee

O yeah n Yen likes to cook weird-smelling food now..i started to buy air freshener,, and poor Anh there was a day when i went back quite late n she was outside but it was really smelly so i asked whether she smelled that too she said yes it was Yen’s food’s smell n she even brought e food inside their room,,n that there was no use telling Yen coz she will get offended,,i suspected that was why Anh was outside,, ooo!!n they stopped playing lock-e-door..hehe but there was a time when..o no,,its only less a week since you’ve gone n i already hav so much things to tell you!! Aaaaargh,,i need to go practice now,,talk to ya later k mommy,,n ill post this in my blog just in case your outlook still not workin!! X)

Miss yaaa!!

be.grateful.

2009-01-13T05:58:00.000-08:00

be grateful for the pain that you feel.

even pain is a blessing

some children are born without e ability to feel pain
my first reaction was to think, "she's so lucky!"
did she?
she kept on biting her arms or lips or tounge
till it bled but she didn't feel a single thing
no cry
no scream
not a single expression
when her parents came and saw her
she was already half dying
becauce of blood loss

if pain is a blessing,
i believe you can find much more things
that you can stop hating n regretting
remember that everythin exists for a reason

without cry you won't recognize smile
without hatred you won't feel love
without sadness you won't know happiness

be grateful

puh-lease

2009-01-12T22:44:00.000-08:00

noooooo

2 days ago e first thing i noticed when i woke up was juhi [dried squid] smell..and i quickly went to buy air freshener..which work really really well..but now my room smells like juhi again!!! whyyy oooo whyyyyyyy

at times like these..i really hate it when somebody's cookin outside,, this hostel unit wasn't designed for people doin serious cookin!

o come ooooon

at least when you cook make sure that your food smells good not smells like juhi!! >.< why would people eat sumthin that smells so bad anyway!! grrrrrrrrr

To Kill a Mockingbird

2009-01-12T22:35:00.000-08:00

To Kill a Mockingbird

..a story exposing e roots of human behavior told from e perspective of an innocent little girl

..a book worth reading

goodbyes.

2009-01-09T18:37:00.000-08:00

writin bout Kristin reminded me of e song lyric my ex wrote to me once when we parted.

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

aaaaaw i hate goodbyes.

KRISTIN.

2009-01-09T18:00:00.000-08:00

my best friend
countless breakfasts.lunchs.dinners.suppers
"you are my sunshine" duet
talking.laughing.doin retarted things.even studying together
[even studyin,,OMG]

my mommy
countless precious "mummiieeee.." "daughtieeee" time
find me a new Sweden ang mo papa soon k
n dun forget to send me ang pao

my dear RS
who has been takin care of me since my first term in SMU,
my first week in Singapore.
who makes me feel like home in Singapore
cleaning e unit together with music from iPod speaker
haha

..Kristin..

- funny, silly, messy, beautiful, lovable, selfconscious, way-too-nice friend of mine -

have fun in Sweden!!
we'll be missin you
sorry we're all sleeping monsters
but we really LOVE you
1 term will be over really soon
c ya soon then =)

xOXo,
Jess.

New.Beginning

2009-01-04T03:47:00.000-08:00

My new year resolutions!

1. STOP BUYING THINGS. I've more than enough things now. Unless I can sell my old things, I won't shop. AT ALL. T__________T uhu uhu
2. MSN every day. max 1 hour.
3. check facebook everyday but spend less than 30 minutes doing so.
4. If I have extra time, learn piano.
5. just do my best in everything i do.

21 Things

2009-01-04T01:32:00.000-08:00

grrrr thanx so much Kristin for makin me do this

21 Things That Most People Don't Know About Me
after you do this, tag 5 people to do this too.

1. I always bought more books than I can read

2. I didn't know how studying feels like before I'm in SMU

3. I don't club in Indonesia

4. I was relieved when my parents got divorced

5. I gave nicknames to most people I know close enough

6. I almost always cry watching good movies

7. I've 2 brothers both in Australia n they still bite n pinch me

8. I love Apple Bacardi more than apple juice

9. I dried n kept e flowers that people gave to me

10. I enjoyed being busy n e adrenaline rush when deadline is near

11. I'm pure Chinese [most people think that I'm Malay]

12. I've tried bungee jumping in Bali

13. Sometimes I still think in Indonesian n translate it to English then say e words

14. I look super healthy but I was always sick at least twice a year

15. I was my English teacher's bridesmaid

16. I honestly think food is the source of happiness

17. Waking me up is a pain in e a**

18. I didn't dare to sleep facin up coz my bro told me once that I'll see a ghost flyin n smilin at me if I do. Now I'm smart enough to tell that it was a lie but I still sleep facing down most of e time

19. Watching horror movies with my bro used to be my hobby when I was
still very small. Now sometimes I didn't dare to open my eyes when I look in the mirror or shower
20. People always thought that I'm bloody underaged
21. I believe that Alien is out there for sure

..writing this was hard coz sum things are just plainly secret xp
Next 5 victims who needs to do this:
Adit
Hippo
Ellince
Vaish
Vivi
Piggy
Cella

I can't count. I know. n some of you dun hav blogs I dun care email me or sumthin I just wanna know xp

Back.in.small.island

2009-01-04T00:53:00.000-08:00

Holiday was fun
It was so fun that it's not enough
1month passed with the speed of light
and so..
here I am.
back in this small island

strangely enough, what i did back home can be represented by 3 F-words:
FAMILY
FOOD
FRIENDS

I won't explain my holiday in details
too many things to write maybe some other time
not in e mood to be reminded of happy slacking not using my brain laughing all the time time
no.
hell no.
not when school is only half a day away

I dun understand myself
I'm e one who wanna go away from home as far as possible n see e world
but everytime i got e chance
I always dun feel quite rite
1day before I left my home in Indonesia
I was with my friends n family
I was laughing all rite
but sumhow i couldn't really breath properly
e suffocating feeling remains till now

I WANT IT TO STOP

I know I'll have fun next term too
I know I'll enjoy my time here

I KNOW

I really know
but even now it's hard to breath
I think I just hate goodbyes
it's painful to leave singapore
it's painful to leave indonesia
it's always painful to leave sumthin
think I'll just see e positive side
1day I'll go back again
to wherever I need to be
so whenever I leave a place
I'll just tell myself "I'll be back soon"

whew
sorry to bother you with a long not so interesting something to read
but I feel better now
YAY
k k I'll write sumthing more positive then
pardon my English k
please bear with me
everytime I go back to Indonesia
I'll come back unable to speak English
hahaha

WAHAAAHAHAAA

2008-11-27T04:22:00.000-08:00

three down.

one more to go.

then all will be over omg omg omg then i'll be free yaaaaaaaaay then go home to my country woohoo!

mom wait for me.
dad wait for me.
bro wait for me.
friends wait for me.
pova wait for me.
sate padang wait for me.
nasi uduk wait for me.
sakana wait for me.
saung grenvil seafood wait for me.
ikan bakar cianjur wait for me.
sop kambing wait for me.

i'm coming home soon!

piggy my loyal friend.

2008-11-26T04:58:00.000-08:00

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.i'm mad.

friendster so stupid.i was lookin for piggy's first ever testimonial for me.it's one of the first 10 testimonials i've ever had.n so i tried to straight away go to e oldest testimonials.you know what i found?it turned out that there are only buttons for previous n next!now there are more than 1300 testimonials n each page only shows 10.

i must click for around 130 time to get to e last page.SWEET

*doin it*
if you know a way to get to e last page do let me know k i'll kill myself.

*still clickin*
i'm gettin mad.

STUPID STUPID FRIENSTER!
RETARDED ME!

i clicked till page 500sumthin n error occured.i tried again n error occured at exactly same page.

.....*smoke comin out of my nose n ears*

anyway.forget friendster.e reason why i wanna look for piggy's testimonial is becoz it meant a lot to me.wish i can share it with everybody.long time no see, pig.miss you a lot.sorry i disappeared.sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.next time you call me n i never pick up, message me k, coz i dunno that it was you.you know me.i left my cellphone all e time.n e tendency to ignore calls n messages never really go away.if not becoming worse here.

nice talkin to you on e phone.

n sorry again e call died coz i was out of phone credit.tell me more when i see you k.can't wait.c ya in december sis! =)

XOXO

JesS.

missin e good ol' times

2008-11-26T02:50:00.000-08:00

it’s not that i’m not happy with my current condition, no. there’s a time when you just miss the old times, especially when everything is so different than what it used to be. Indonesia and Singapore is so nearby, but e culture is so different that sometimes i felt foreign and lonely.so weird.i was always considered as 1 of e happiest person ever *not exaggerating*

not now, though.

sometimes i feel lonely even when i am together with my friends, it’s as though i was wrapped inside a bubble that separated me from others. hmph well i guess it’s time for me to get used to it. i’m aware that i’m becoming more individualistic as i spend my time in Singapore. it’s in the culture. Not that it is bad, though. it’s just..different.

maybe it's becoz of language barrier? if i put it bluntly; my English SUCKS. haha. i’m still thinking in Bahasa Indonesia, then i’ll translate it to English as e words come out of my mouth. yeap. it sucks to want to say something but not able to put it into words. hopefully my English will improve. after exchange to Europe maybe? YAY

for now, i’ll just bear with my current condition. ooo how i missed talking with my mother tounge, bahasa. i miss Indonesian food! i miss my old friends.. high school times..hmm..anyway i just checked my friendster account.o gosh.i can't even remember e password so i looked at my account as though i'm a stranger.this is what i found:

i didn't know my old friends wished me happy b'day from friendster.i thought e one at my facebook account was all.don't hav time to reply them now.will do it later after exams.promise.

i'm talkin nonsense!haha people this is what happen you study too much.oops.not like i study much tho xP lazy.silly.me.

JesS.

I'm so sorry but you guys look e same to me..

2008-11-26T01:39:00.000-08:00

Don't you think they look the same?

I do.

I'm so sorry, Arvind, but honestly..hahahhahaha I can't help it. *evil mode: on"

Crazy.CURSING.Auntie

2008-11-26T00:16:00.000-08:00

this afternoon when i was walkin to school with uncle,
suddenly sumbody shouted right behind us.
at first i thought it was one of our friends.

NOPE.

it was e famous crazy CURSING auntie.
n i mean it literally.
she's crazy n all she does is cursing.
worst part is, she cursed everybody.
i didn't know her but she attacked me T_____T
i almost had heart attack.
we walked really fast.
get all sweaty before exam.
thanx a lot auntie, i feel so healthy after running.
anyway, if you see auntie that looks like this near SMU or hostel:

run.
as fast as you can.

woohoo.

2008-11-25T12:08:00.000-08:00

OMG.
[backsound: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..]
threadless tees at $5.guys.let's order together before all e tees are sold out.seriously.

I Melt With You.

2008-11-25T10:28:00.000-08:00

So bored.
man i'm sick of studyin.haha.just disturbed uncle, went to her room.we're pretty much on e same page.yeah!

my iTunes' playin one of my fav songs..

Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace

I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you

k k study.i know.

hmmm.

2008-11-25T02:13:00.000-08:00

..interesting.

grrrrrrr.

2008-11-25T01:59:00.000-08:00

kris n leann: stop hacking my blog! >.< *bite*

btw here's why i suddenly created this blog..

yesterday nite.nope.this early morning.around 4am.

kris: i just updated my blog
me: i wanna see
kris: see see this
me: WOW how to change blog skin?
kris: go to blogskin!
*n so i browsed blogskin*
me: OMG SO NICE
*busy clickin here n there*
me: this one is nice
me again: this one is also nice
nice..nice..

o well.now you know how i ended up havin my own blog xp

oh no

2008-11-25T00:58:00.000-08:00

i was talkin to vaish n kris,,

then uncle came. holdin marketing textbook [e one that we copied together]

OMG.

we're at e same page! leann. stop imitating me k. hahaha

an ironic fact: tomorrow's e exam n both of us not even near to finishin. o well, who cares. haha

YAY.

2008-11-24T14:26:00.000-08:00

finally

e first version of my blog is done.

HAHHAHAHAHAHA *crazy mode: on*

now it's 6.27am. nice timing Jess. you hav 1 last day to study marketing. k k i'd better start studyin now.

Hi.Alo.Hi.Whatever.

2008-11-24T11:54:00.000-08:00

OMG FINALLY MY FIRST BLOG!!

thanx to Kristin e mUmmy for e inspiration,,hahhahaha it's 4.51am n i'm supposed to be studyin rite now but nevermind. textbook can wait.

it's so exciting.blogging.aaaaaaaa

Hi, i'm JESSICA NOVIA, just a normal typical busy SMU student with a little too high amount of lazyness n alcohol consumption. Oops. don't let my parents know, thank you. i work hard, play harder. i'm crazy bout dance n lyrics.

oooo you hav no idea how nice song lyrics can kill me.

I like havin fun.
I wanna travel all around e world.
I wanna live happily ever after.
I wanna live forever.

I am just an ordinary unique girl. Nice to meet you =)

XOXO

JesS.